To Climb High One Must Begin Low
6 years ago
Monday, October 20, 2008
Its more thn wat meets the eye
Firstly i would probaly would wanna say tht wat DA HELL IS WRONG WIT SUM OF THE PPL tht i noe or ppl tht i see day by day wit my eyes....firstly the idea of potraying an good and presentable image in one's life is important but deze days its been taken to another freakin and annyoing level whr at times u juz wana choke tht particular person to death...it goes by yes as i said its important to potray an nice image tht doesnt mean tht one can always cover his/her flaws by bringing down someone else's personal life...i mean thts bloody absurd....in life you always cant potray as if ur god or queen or king juz for namesake to gain popularityness...because we are all human so thrs time whn u do sumtins in life whr it juz causes a raised eyebrow or two...well thts da nature of life so live wit it ppl...i am nt saying as if i am freaking good bt the fact is i have been thr done tht...and i once used to have tht ''i muz potray diz guddy boy image'' bt now i luk at it its my life...i am living it my way...i cant be pleasing everyone....so yea rite now i couldnt be a lease bit bothered bout wat others think of me....except for my loved one's...as the saying goes "BE YOURSELF" ppl.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Untaken path
Its about 6 am and i am about to start another journey to my permanental destination…probaly reaching there deze days poses quite a challenge to my schedule…as we head to the old roads of Banting i have gt no choice since my aunt is quite sttuborn in using diz road to Klia i have gt no choice bt to follow since i need to use the ride….to do my chores in da ever clad black structure.I hav my thoughts of sleepin as i am probaly extremely exhausted as my days seems not to end…something interesting catches my eye….as i am quite used to the modernise roads…diz road which is full with heavy machineries and nuthin else bt greenry…its quiet an refreshing view…afta all i am kinda glued wit my cad design…my viewer needs an refreshing look….as i keep looking and looking at these views and with the wind so cool and nice…not to mention da smell of cow dung…i could find sum peace in myslef…it was seriously nice….no pressure…no stress…and from nowhere different views and perspectives about the places that i pass by sum how i cn still relate thm to my ever tensiounos assignments.Another view that caught my view was da rise of our morning light and with our creations of birds flying it was a sight that i dont get to c everyday…i am drowning in deze thoughts of nature,perspective,life,and passion for flights…it was da moment that i totally forgot abt my assignments and it was nice…So da longer,unkind,tortorous roads are actually nice and as thr say old is gold….its juz nt bout roads i am tryin to say…bt also to realte abt life…at times we gt to take…the untaken path….:)
Plagrise frm Sutha...
1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
nt yet
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
hahaha....
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
a lovely key frm my parents
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
whn oni its never been dropped i wonder
5. WHAT’S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
IN DA MORNING...yay....its been awhile
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
food....and hmmm...nt tellin da rest
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
havent and i am hungrwyyy
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
eyes....lol
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
for now..I miss u by klymaxx...
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED?
La Salle
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
Celcom
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
no clue
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
hahaha....being a pest to the ppl i love
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
No
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
Yes! was a fav past time in high school!!! haha pu remember??
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
No clue...i wish i was getting married..lol
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU’D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
Veerai and Naveen
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND?
On friday
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
4 nw....mamak
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
Tell me I suck and it wont bother me. Yea right!
24. CAN YOU COOK?
use 2 be a pro..yea..sometimes..once in a while la
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
aunties spectra...
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
lol...whn i was drunk....lol
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
food is gud 4 ur soul...dont u tink
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
no idea
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
I am lazy and very confused
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
at klang club
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
mission impossible
34. CAN YOU SING?
nt tht i need to
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
sadly none
36. LAST KISS?
i wish i hd
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
its been sumtime
38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?
mobile...wallet...
39. FAVORITE vacation spot:
Anywhere in a hotel room with a big big huge bed and pretty bathroom and people i love
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Laptop...
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
vadivelu..and da bunch frm harold and kumar
45. DO YOU SMOKE?
:)
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
topless
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
cud wish 4 thtla....probaly my darling...lol
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
U never noe
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
not yet so far
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
french toast
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
use to be alltime fav
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
fried...wit tomato sauce
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
oh yea...i go on astrology sites all the time
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:
sivaprakash
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
i always pick up 1
56. LAST TEXT RECEIVED?:
frm celcom....
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
3
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
shorts and tee
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
I juz call to say i Love u frm da bottom of my heart...lol
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
erm...raspberry
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
abit
63. CAN YOU SWIM?
yea
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
vanilla wit choc topping
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
no particular preference
66. I LOVE ________
my life and everything about it.
68. EVER ATTENDED A THEME PARTY?:
Yes
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
wanna try out winter la
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED?
chattin wit sum pig name call Lynn...lol...she is weird...muahahah
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ?
u mean evening...lol...slept at 11am and woke up at 4pm
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
nt single clue
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
not yet la
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
pluto
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
nt interested
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
naveen bday...assignments
78. BIRTHDATE
was a blast...imagine havin a celebration 4 a continous 2weeks...it was memorable 1
79. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
no
80. ARE YOU SMILING?:
why shud i
81. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
quite a few people
82. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
switzerland....and few more
83. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
i'm old d la
84. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
i have forgotten abtt da meaning crush....lol
85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
besides pravin..its man.karate
86. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
green
88. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
oo laa laa yes!
90. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
yes da one and only dramatic sutha....lol...
91. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
no
92. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
always been!
93. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
yes..azlot...lol
94. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE IN PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
gt a fewla
95. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
nothing
96. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
go eat..jom makan makan
nt yet
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
hahaha....
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
a lovely key frm my parents
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
whn oni its never been dropped i wonder
5. WHAT’S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
IN DA MORNING...yay....its been awhile
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
food....and hmmm...nt tellin da rest
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
havent and i am hungrwyyy
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
eyes....lol
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
for now..I miss u by klymaxx...
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED?
La Salle
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
Celcom
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
no clue
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
hahaha....being a pest to the ppl i love
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
No
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
Yes! was a fav past time in high school!!! haha pu remember??
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
No clue...i wish i was getting married..lol
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU’D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
Veerai and Naveen
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND?
On friday
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
4 nw....mamak
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
Tell me I suck and it wont bother me. Yea right!
24. CAN YOU COOK?
use 2 be a pro..yea..sometimes..once in a while la
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
aunties spectra...
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
lol...whn i was drunk....lol
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
food is gud 4 ur soul...dont u tink
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
no idea
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
I am lazy and very confused
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
at klang club
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
mission impossible
34. CAN YOU SING?
nt tht i need to
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
sadly none
36. LAST KISS?
i wish i hd
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
its been sumtime
38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?
mobile...wallet...
39. FAVORITE vacation spot:
Anywhere in a hotel room with a big big huge bed and pretty bathroom and people i love
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Laptop...
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
vadivelu..and da bunch frm harold and kumar
45. DO YOU SMOKE?
:)
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
topless
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
cud wish 4 thtla....probaly my darling...lol
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
U never noe
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
not yet so far
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
french toast
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
use to be alltime fav
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
fried...wit tomato sauce
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
oh yea...i go on astrology sites all the time
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:
sivaprakash
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
i always pick up 1
56. LAST TEXT RECEIVED?:
frm celcom....
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
3
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
shorts and tee
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
I juz call to say i Love u frm da bottom of my heart...lol
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
erm...raspberry
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
abit
63. CAN YOU SWIM?
yea
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
vanilla wit choc topping
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
no particular preference
66. I LOVE ________
my life and everything about it.
68. EVER ATTENDED A THEME PARTY?:
Yes
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
wanna try out winter la
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED?
chattin wit sum pig name call Lynn...lol...she is weird...muahahah
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ?
u mean evening...lol...slept at 11am and woke up at 4pm
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
nt single clue
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
not yet la
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
pluto
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
nt interested
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
naveen bday...assignments
78. BIRTHDATE
was a blast...imagine havin a celebration 4 a continous 2weeks...it was memorable 1
79. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
no
80. ARE YOU SMILING?:
why shud i
81. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
quite a few people
82. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
switzerland....and few more
83. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
i'm old d la
84. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
i have forgotten abtt da meaning crush....lol
85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
besides pravin..its man.karate
86. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
green
88. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
oo laa laa yes!
90. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
yes da one and only dramatic sutha....lol...
91. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
no
92. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
always been!
93. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
yes..azlot...lol
94. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE IN PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
gt a fewla
95. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
nothing
96. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
go eat..jom makan makan
Monday, October 13, 2008
Its old bt its 1 of da most meaning full things tht has happen to me...:)
"Achi use to pamper and treated him lyk a prince” those are the words on and off that moves thru my ears whenever me and my aunties are reminisincg da good old memories that is captured in a form of photos.So thr i was the prince of the house or my amma use to call me master Pravin.Yes i could never really remeber those moments with my very own computer brains tht i have but flipping through those albums makes me feel very special indeed.Bydaway my achi means my greatgrandmother and the only moments i could remeber about her was the day when she left us all,me crying in fear, and amma grabbing my hands and filling it with beautiful and lively rose to be put in her coffin.Wanderin why am i writting these things i guess its abt time for me to express myself abt feelings abt myself,my family and people who have made a impact in my life.Besides i have trouble expressing with speech or either i am emotionless,grumpy or smilling my life away those are the only expressions my system is allowed to produce.Its rare for me to say it and indeed its also an insipiration om sutha aka baby sister’s invaluable inspiration and beautifully crafted writings.
Yes speaking of inspiration its always gotta to be her.She has been the my inspiration,my saviour,my sister and the person whos always been there for me with her never ending support,always filled me with loved and affection that not a singe person could have filled that place.Moments of me tht i went thru of havin to walk through da dark cloudy skies over me,everything seems so dead,dark and gloomy.She was the one who rescued me as if i was drowning in a ocean helplessly.For months of gloomyness i shut myself out frm the outside world stuck in between four walls wanderin what am i gonna do,and with phrases keeps playing in my mind ”how could you do diz”,”how could you fail”,”you re such a disgrace” yet i dont blame diz mouths from saying it bt it made me feel worst.Sutha was thr ever ready to help me out and my family ready to give me a second chance bt yet i still dint give thm da chnce to do it.Fate plays its part of the revival for pravin where by i had to meet them in a hospital when my amuma was sick.Still i made myself totally unfriendly or as if thr were perfect strangers.As i wait in my unlces office waiting to get a lift bck home she comes in with a smile,”how are you anna”.As she tried to break through the barriers of egoness in myself its still when stale..and as i was abt to exit the door she grabs me in gives me a hug, a hug of never ending love and affection tht i dearly missed in myself.”We all love you anna” and as she continues with her heartbroken tone of speech and as tears started flowing frm her eyes thts when i realized i have people who loves me for who i am,ppl who beleived in me and frm tht very moment i hd self conflict with myslef..”I have a reason to be happy and a chance to make it right.As time drew closer to make it right and under her ever dedicated and guidance it took me juz 2months to ace it.
Failures ill roll bck to whn i 1st started going for taekweando whn i was 6.Dressed up in a fancy kiki - lala t-shirt and jeans by my mom was never well recieved by my master ”you gotta to wear suit,you cant train in tht son”…and as i could recalled my 1st few weeks was quite bad,being a late bloomer and so on,my master had a chat with appa saying ”i dont tink your son is never gonna master the skills and basicaly gave up hope”.Yet again i was 6 and da beauty of it was tht i never really understood abt pressure,or wat people kept thinking,i kept on going yes failing too..and 10 years later i am with a 1st degree holder..It may look as if it was a smaall matter bt it means alot to me no matter how u preceive it.
Patients…people who are ever patient enough with me,forgiving me,giving me chance after chance its gotta be ”my world,my parents”.Up till today there have kept FAITH in me…still showed loved and affection even whn thr was tremendous amounts of misunderstanding and mishaps.Yes its my fault i have never really shown the love and affection tht i shud have bt for sum reason i juz cant say diz phrase to any 1 and i wonder why..mishaps well i had my amuma,my apupa,my aunties tht i see them as form of motherly figure.I always had yourll to guide me,treated my lyk a son rather thn a grandson or nephew..whn times for tough there were there for me….and i am glad…
Being a pessimitic or potato couchy or playstationiisss was how i was during my lower secondary besides i dint really get to hangout so called i wasnt kewl enough..so i decided to act kewl..tried to fit in whuch ended up making me lyk a fool and getting myself into trouble…One bright sunny afternoon as i prepare my utensils and books for add maths,walks thru da door a familiar face…bt i still wondered who…as he pulls his chair out and sits comfotablly next to me ”So you are da guy who is living next door to me rite” and he says ”yea”..”i am pravin” and instantly replies ”Naveen”…This was another moment for da next two years tht transformed me from a guy who basically was fearing to do anytin life…was such a pessimist into a indepent,ever condifent,tried out new things and yes another lifee in my life..tht i have become a strong young man…It was da time of my life…cherish diz friendship 4 life…and also close group of frenz who made tings luk so fun and comfortable….
And speaking of comfortableness Darshan reminds me of the oppostie in a gud way with his never ending jokes,juz love to disturb him and thn he tend to be an annoyer and starts arrakaraning my life away abt da gal tht i lyk and whn i start being uncontrablle on tht subejct he would be lyk ”Anna can u stop it ah…da koodumaais i have to go thru…haih”’ or he would be lyk ” since we are goin out in 1 car and i am sittin next to you i am definitly gonna bring my ear plugs along”….
Time a factor that is crucial to our daily lives now it juz passes by so fast tht u can never sit tight in one position.This is how it was lyk at the ever prsioniers cell of desaria..juggling my time frm architecture and washing buses…yes it was…and if you think abt bus drivers wat is your 1st taught abt thm arrogant,rude,drunkards,gangsters and basically no motif in life it sure did change mine though..There basically treated me lyk their brother,gave me a nudge if i suppose to be doin my assignments thn laziing around doin nutin..etc…yes i was paid well it look lyk embarrasing job bt it wasnt…i hhd da chance to put myself in their shoes, view and experince life from their point..and its ever me made me more determined to make it as an architect.
Rubini aunty weell she was the one who was ever deterrmine to make things rite.Sadly it wasnt to be, one of the moments we had is whn were in a club..yes i was high..i decided to reach for da idiot box in my pocket..took one stick out put it on my liqured wet lips and whn i was abt to light it…she comes up to me hugs me tightly tht i dearly missed..”you dont have to ace in all da tings you do…bt make sure you do it..study..and become sum 1 in life..we have faith in you” those were da last words i ever heard frm her..She was a perfect model of how i could ever ask for a future wife…she was my dancing queen too…
Madamme shareeshya reminds of a dancing queen..such a cute,pretty and adorable angle yes she has alot of things to say abt life…lol..whn da room is filled wit ppl…i ll turn at her and say ”i luv u”…she would cheekly turn bck and say ”i hate u”…ill turn sad and sour she would rightfully jump on me ….gives me a big hug..”I love you anna”…its a bond of speciallness in it…
Special bond hmmm…..as we try to sleep in da hall..its probaly two am…door locks are unlocked silently and he releases da knob silently thr walks in Mohan uncle…as i turn to luk around in a dreamland mode…he starts his witty,sense of humor kind of personality..”You people nt sleepin yet ah”…thn as his sits down and has a mood swing effect as he glances thru da photo of his beloved wife he starts sheedding tears…and as we console him…he pats my back..gently caress my head ”if it wasnt for you Pravin,i wouldnt be here today”…tht phrase sums it up..its time for me tht i ought to make thru da most,live thru da challenges,wit a fired up personality i am ought to be a success..yes mistakes has been done and still makin bt i am also learning..its my duty to make the people dearesdt to my heart proud..this has been bit and pieces, important ones actually tht i was too ready express it…life would be meaningless if yourll are nt around me…and as i head bck to my assignments, i wait and ponder would i lhave another brilliant conversation..and as i lay down my feelingss and how i have made it up to now i am definitly sheeding a tear or two…tears of joy and happiness…right now i am LIVING MY LEGACY….
Yes speaking of inspiration its always gotta to be her.She has been the my inspiration,my saviour,my sister and the person whos always been there for me with her never ending support,always filled me with loved and affection that not a singe person could have filled that place.Moments of me tht i went thru of havin to walk through da dark cloudy skies over me,everything seems so dead,dark and gloomy.She was the one who rescued me as if i was drowning in a ocean helplessly.For months of gloomyness i shut myself out frm the outside world stuck in between four walls wanderin what am i gonna do,and with phrases keeps playing in my mind ”how could you do diz”,”how could you fail”,”you re such a disgrace” yet i dont blame diz mouths from saying it bt it made me feel worst.Sutha was thr ever ready to help me out and my family ready to give me a second chance bt yet i still dint give thm da chnce to do it.Fate plays its part of the revival for pravin where by i had to meet them in a hospital when my amuma was sick.Still i made myself totally unfriendly or as if thr were perfect strangers.As i wait in my unlces office waiting to get a lift bck home she comes in with a smile,”how are you anna”.As she tried to break through the barriers of egoness in myself its still when stale..and as i was abt to exit the door she grabs me in gives me a hug, a hug of never ending love and affection tht i dearly missed in myself.”We all love you anna” and as she continues with her heartbroken tone of speech and as tears started flowing frm her eyes thts when i realized i have people who loves me for who i am,ppl who beleived in me and frm tht very moment i hd self conflict with myslef..”I have a reason to be happy and a chance to make it right.As time drew closer to make it right and under her ever dedicated and guidance it took me juz 2months to ace it.
Failures ill roll bck to whn i 1st started going for taekweando whn i was 6.Dressed up in a fancy kiki - lala t-shirt and jeans by my mom was never well recieved by my master ”you gotta to wear suit,you cant train in tht son”…and as i could recalled my 1st few weeks was quite bad,being a late bloomer and so on,my master had a chat with appa saying ”i dont tink your son is never gonna master the skills and basicaly gave up hope”.Yet again i was 6 and da beauty of it was tht i never really understood abt pressure,or wat people kept thinking,i kept on going yes failing too..and 10 years later i am with a 1st degree holder..It may look as if it was a smaall matter bt it means alot to me no matter how u preceive it.
Patients…people who are ever patient enough with me,forgiving me,giving me chance after chance its gotta be ”my world,my parents”.Up till today there have kept FAITH in me…still showed loved and affection even whn thr was tremendous amounts of misunderstanding and mishaps.Yes its my fault i have never really shown the love and affection tht i shud have bt for sum reason i juz cant say diz phrase to any 1 and i wonder why..mishaps well i had my amuma,my apupa,my aunties tht i see them as form of motherly figure.I always had yourll to guide me,treated my lyk a son rather thn a grandson or nephew..whn times for tough there were there for me….and i am glad…
Being a pessimitic or potato couchy or playstationiisss was how i was during my lower secondary besides i dint really get to hangout so called i wasnt kewl enough..so i decided to act kewl..tried to fit in whuch ended up making me lyk a fool and getting myself into trouble…One bright sunny afternoon as i prepare my utensils and books for add maths,walks thru da door a familiar face…bt i still wondered who…as he pulls his chair out and sits comfotablly next to me ”So you are da guy who is living next door to me rite” and he says ”yea”..”i am pravin” and instantly replies ”Naveen”…This was another moment for da next two years tht transformed me from a guy who basically was fearing to do anytin life…was such a pessimist into a indepent,ever condifent,tried out new things and yes another lifee in my life..tht i have become a strong young man…It was da time of my life…cherish diz friendship 4 life…and also close group of frenz who made tings luk so fun and comfortable….
And speaking of comfortableness Darshan reminds me of the oppostie in a gud way with his never ending jokes,juz love to disturb him and thn he tend to be an annoyer and starts arrakaraning my life away abt da gal tht i lyk and whn i start being uncontrablle on tht subejct he would be lyk ”Anna can u stop it ah…da koodumaais i have to go thru…haih”’ or he would be lyk ” since we are goin out in 1 car and i am sittin next to you i am definitly gonna bring my ear plugs along”….
Time a factor that is crucial to our daily lives now it juz passes by so fast tht u can never sit tight in one position.This is how it was lyk at the ever prsioniers cell of desaria..juggling my time frm architecture and washing buses…yes it was…and if you think abt bus drivers wat is your 1st taught abt thm arrogant,rude,drunkards,gangsters and basically no motif in life it sure did change mine though..There basically treated me lyk their brother,gave me a nudge if i suppose to be doin my assignments thn laziing around doin nutin..etc…yes i was paid well it look lyk embarrasing job bt it wasnt…i hhd da chance to put myself in their shoes, view and experince life from their point..and its ever me made me more determined to make it as an architect.
Rubini aunty weell she was the one who was ever deterrmine to make things rite.Sadly it wasnt to be, one of the moments we had is whn were in a club..yes i was high..i decided to reach for da idiot box in my pocket..took one stick out put it on my liqured wet lips and whn i was abt to light it…she comes up to me hugs me tightly tht i dearly missed..”you dont have to ace in all da tings you do…bt make sure you do it..study..and become sum 1 in life..we have faith in you” those were da last words i ever heard frm her..She was a perfect model of how i could ever ask for a future wife…she was my dancing queen too…
Madamme shareeshya reminds of a dancing queen..such a cute,pretty and adorable angle yes she has alot of things to say abt life…lol..whn da room is filled wit ppl…i ll turn at her and say ”i luv u”…she would cheekly turn bck and say ”i hate u”…ill turn sad and sour she would rightfully jump on me ….gives me a big hug..”I love you anna”…its a bond of speciallness in it…
Special bond hmmm…..as we try to sleep in da hall..its probaly two am…door locks are unlocked silently and he releases da knob silently thr walks in Mohan uncle…as i turn to luk around in a dreamland mode…he starts his witty,sense of humor kind of personality..”You people nt sleepin yet ah”…thn as his sits down and has a mood swing effect as he glances thru da photo of his beloved wife he starts sheedding tears…and as we console him…he pats my back..gently caress my head ”if it wasnt for you Pravin,i wouldnt be here today”…tht phrase sums it up..its time for me tht i ought to make thru da most,live thru da challenges,wit a fired up personality i am ought to be a success..yes mistakes has been done and still makin bt i am also learning..its my duty to make the people dearesdt to my heart proud..this has been bit and pieces, important ones actually tht i was too ready express it…life would be meaningless if yourll are nt around me…and as i head bck to my assignments, i wait and ponder would i lhave another brilliant conversation..and as i lay down my feelingss and how i have made it up to now i am definitly sheeding a tear or two…tears of joy and happiness…right now i am LIVING MY LEGACY….
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