Its old bt its 1 of da most meaning full things tht has happen to me...:)

"Achi use to pamper and treated him lyk a prince” those are the words on and off that moves thru my ears whenever me and my aunties are reminisincg da good old memories that is captured in a form of photos.So thr i was the prince of the house or my amma use to call me master Pravin.Yes i could never really remeber those moments with my very own computer brains tht i have but flipping through those albums makes me feel very special indeed.Bydaway my achi means my greatgrandmother and the only moments i could remeber about her was the day when she left us all,me crying in fear, and amma grabbing my hands and filling it with beautiful and lively rose to be put in her coffin.Wanderin why am i writting these things i guess its abt time for me to express myself abt feelings abt myself,my family and people who have made a impact in my life.Besides i have trouble expressing with speech or either i am emotionless,grumpy or smilling my life away those are the only expressions my system is allowed to produce.Its rare for me to say it and indeed its also an insipiration om sutha aka baby sister’s invaluable inspiration and beautifully crafted writings.

Yes speaking of inspiration its always gotta to be her.She has been the my inspiration,my saviour,my sister and the person whos always been there for me with her never ending support,always filled me with loved and affection that not a singe person could have filled that place.Moments of me tht i went thru of havin to walk through da dark cloudy skies over me,everything seems so dead,dark and gloomy.She was the one who rescued me as if i was drowning in a ocean helplessly.For months of gloomyness i shut myself out frm the outside world stuck in between four walls wanderin what am i gonna do,and with phrases keeps playing in my mind ”how could you do diz”,”how could you fail”,”you re such a disgrace” yet i dont blame diz mouths from saying it bt it made me feel worst.Sutha was thr ever ready to help me out and my family ready to give me a second chance bt yet i still dint give thm da chnce to do it.Fate plays its part of the revival for pravin where by i had to meet them in a hospital when my amuma was sick.Still i made myself totally unfriendly or as if thr were perfect strangers.As i wait in my unlces office waiting to get a lift bck home she comes in with a smile,”how are you anna”.As she tried to break through the barriers of egoness in myself its still when stale..and as i was abt to exit the door she grabs me in gives me a hug, a hug of never ending love and affection tht i dearly missed in myself.”We all love you anna” and as she continues with her heartbroken tone of speech and as tears started flowing frm her eyes thts when i realized i have people who loves me for who i am,ppl who beleived in me and frm tht very moment i hd self conflict with myslef..”I have a reason to be happy and a chance to make it right.As time drew closer to make it right and under her ever dedicated and guidance it took me juz 2months to ace it.

Failures ill roll bck to whn i 1st started going for taekweando whn i was 6.Dressed up in a fancy kiki - lala t-shirt and jeans by my mom was never well recieved by my master ”you gotta to wear suit,you cant train in tht son”…and as i could recalled my 1st few weeks was quite bad,being a late bloomer and so on,my master had a chat with appa saying ”i dont tink your son is never gonna master the skills and basicaly gave up hope”.Yet again i was 6 and da beauty of it was tht i never really understood abt pressure,or wat people kept thinking,i kept on going yes failing too..and 10 years later i am with a 1st degree holder..It may look as if it was a smaall matter bt it means alot to me no matter how u preceive it.

Patients…people who are ever patient enough with me,forgiving me,giving me chance after chance its gotta be ”my world,my parents”.Up till today there have kept FAITH in me…still showed loved and affection even whn thr was tremendous amounts of misunderstanding and mishaps.Yes its my fault i have never really shown the love and affection tht i shud have bt for sum reason i juz cant say diz phrase to any 1 and i wonder why..mishaps well i had my amuma,my apupa,my aunties tht i see them as form of motherly figure.I always had yourll to guide me,treated my lyk a son rather thn a grandson or nephew..whn times for tough there were there for me….and i am glad…

Being a pessimitic or potato couchy or playstationiisss was how i was during my lower secondary besides i dint really get to hangout so called i wasnt kewl enough..so i decided to act kewl..tried to fit in whuch ended up making me lyk a fool and getting myself into trouble…One bright sunny afternoon as i prepare my utensils and books for add maths,walks thru da door a familiar face…bt i still wondered who…as he pulls his chair out and sits comfotablly next to me ”So you are da guy who is living next door to me rite” and he says ”yea”..”i am pravin” and instantly replies ”Naveen”…This was another moment for da next two years tht transformed me from a guy who basically was fearing to do anytin life…was such a pessimist into a indepent,ever condifent,tried out new things and yes another lifee in my life..tht i have become a strong young man…It was da time of my life…cherish diz friendship 4 life…and also close group of frenz who made tings luk so fun and comfortable….

And speaking of comfortableness Darshan reminds me of the oppostie in a gud way with his never ending jokes,juz love to disturb him and thn he tend to be an annoyer and starts arrakaraning my life away abt da gal tht i lyk and whn i start being uncontrablle on tht subejct he would be lyk ”Anna can u stop it ah…da koodumaais i have to go thru…haih”’ or he would be lyk ” since we are goin out in 1 car and i am sittin next to you i am definitly gonna bring my ear plugs along”….

Time a factor that is crucial to our daily lives now it juz passes by so fast tht u can never sit tight in one position.This is how it was lyk at the ever prsioniers cell of desaria..juggling my time frm architecture and washing buses…yes it was…and if you think abt bus drivers wat is your 1st taught abt thm arrogant,rude,drunkards,gangsters and basically no motif in life it sure did change mine though..There basically treated me lyk their brother,gave me a nudge if i suppose to be doin my assignments thn laziing around doin nutin..etc…yes i was paid well it look lyk embarrasing job bt it wasnt…i hhd da chance to put myself in their shoes, view and experince life from their point..and its ever me made me more determined to make it as an architect.

Rubini aunty weell she was the one who was ever deterrmine to make things rite.Sadly it wasnt to be, one of the moments we had is whn were in a club..yes i was high..i decided to reach for da idiot box in my pocket..took one stick out put it on my liqured wet lips and whn i was abt to light it…she comes up to me hugs me tightly tht i dearly missed..”you dont have to ace in all da tings you do…bt make sure you do it..study..and become sum 1 in life..we have faith in you” those were da last words i ever heard frm her..She was a perfect model of how i could ever ask for a future wife…she was my dancing queen too…

Madamme shareeshya reminds of a dancing queen..such a cute,pretty and adorable angle yes she has alot of things to say abt life…lol..whn da room is filled wit ppl…i ll turn at her and say ”i luv u”…she would cheekly turn bck and say ”i hate u”…ill turn sad and sour she would rightfully jump on me ….gives me a big hug..”I love you anna”…its a bond of speciallness in it…

Special bond hmmm…..as we try to sleep in da hall..its probaly two am…door locks are unlocked silently and he releases da knob silently thr walks in Mohan uncle…as i turn to luk around in a dreamland mode…he starts his witty,sense of humor kind of personality..”You people nt sleepin yet ah”…thn as his sits down and has a mood swing effect as he glances thru da photo of his beloved wife he starts sheedding tears…and as we console him…he pats my back..gently caress my head ”if it wasnt for you Pravin,i wouldnt be here today”…tht phrase sums it up..its time for me tht i ought to make thru da most,live thru da challenges,wit a fired up personality i am ought to be a success..yes mistakes has been done and still makin bt i am also learning..its my duty to make the people dearesdt to my heart proud..this has been bit and pieces, important ones actually tht i was too ready express it…life would be meaningless if yourll are nt around me…and as i head bck to my assignments, i wait and ponder would i lhave another brilliant conversation..and as i lay down my feelingss and how i have made it up to now i am definitly sheeding a tear or two…tears of joy and happiness…right now i am LIVING MY LEGACY….